by Josephine Litonjua
A mother’s love
is a kind of love that transcends space and time.
But that was according to others
who have felt their mother’s love,
unlike me
but then sometimes
when I fall into slumber,
I dream about you
somehow I feel your love
in my dreams, you are real
your hugs, your touch
your smiles, your laughter
you are very much alive
there you were
opening your arms to me
ordering me to come to you
hugging me
and letting my unshed tears flow
listening to me
letting me speak up
speak the words I left unspoken
letting me do the things I left undone
letting me bare my pains
that I’ve kept deep inside me
that I’ve tried to conceal
there you were
filling the emptiness in my heart
and willing me to struggle and hold on
somehow in my dreams
you were there
guiding me, helping me
teaching me as you’ve taught others
assuring me of things
that I felt uncertain of
telling me that everything
will be fine
that everything
will be alright
telling me things
that I long to hear
you were there
beaming a confident smile
telling me that I can do it
when I felt so unsure of myself
somehow you were there
trying to make me smile
when I felt like crying
when I felt so down
in my dreams
you are within my reach
within my arm’s length
in my dreams
I can hug you
I can say that I’m so proud of you
and most of all
that I love you
and when I wake up
I’ll realize my dreams were nothing
but a farce
but sometimes
when I feel the wind’s touch
in my face, blowing the strands of my hair,
somehow I knew it was you
touching me, toying with my hair, hugging me
and when I heard the wind’s whisper
and the rustling of leaves
I knew it was you
talking to me
and as rain pelted my back
somehow I knew it was you
crying for me
willing me to go on
or sometimes as I see the sun smiling
I felt it was you
promising the joy that the day brings
telling me everything’s going to be fine
or sometimes as I see the stars blinking
somehow I knew it was you
staring back at me
watching over me
somehow I knew you were somewhere
somehow I knew that you love me too
somehow I knew you were there…
very much alive…
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06 March 1998 – Friday [8:55PM – 9:30PM]
Written one month before my 19th birthday, one month and 10 days before my Mom’s 19th death anniversary. Mom, this is for you, wherever you are, I know you already found peace.
This is also for my friend, Aimee…you know why…
Jho,
Beautifully written and heart-felt raw emotions. Anyone who has lost someone as dear as mum can relate to that.
Thanks for sharing it with us. Your mum would have been very proud of you
Thanks, Junying! I’m glad that you liked it.
I sure hope so! ^_^
Simply beautiful.
Good to see you here, Sandra – thanks for tweeting it too.
I’m glad you liked it Sandra, thank you so much for reading and tweeting!
Jho,
Need i say more? I haven’t fully recited the poem you wrote a long time ago… probably the one that made me a “convert” hahaha. Seriously, I can relate… you know about my dad. Thanks for sharing this!
Hi Len, what’s that poem? Can you please cite a few lines… curious na ako LOL. I can’t imagine someone liking my poems way back… those were my “forced” works… this poem was one of those few poems I wrote on my own accord ^_^